Random I know, but I love my sad little spoon, and I shall tell you the story of my sad spoon.

Well yesterday I was slightly starving because I hadn't brought any lunch to college, because I am a genius, so I made my friends walk to Asda with me, through the snow and all that jazz, so that I could get something to eat.

I got a lovely and yummy, unhealthy pasta pot, but when I found my friends again they were wandering around the yoghurt aisle, so I hmmed and went to see what horrible yoghurts they were looking at (I don't like yoghurts, or dairy products in general; yuck!), so 2 of them bought the big pots of Onken yoghurts. So we went back to college and sat by the classroom door to eat our food, my friends finished their massive pots of Onken yoghurt, greedy things!

Anyway, we are now at today, and I forgot my left over pizza, silly me, so I thought what the f***, I'll kind of start my diet a few days early, so we had another trip to Asda and I bought myself a pot of fat free vanilla Onken Yoghurt and a clementine (yummy fruit).

So we're sat in the canteen eating our food and I only eat half of the yoghurt, otherwise I would have had 60% of my daily intake of sugar, just from a yoghurt! And because I'm orally fixated (according to Freud, but that can be another blog post...) I start sucking/nibbling my spoon, and I don't realise I've cracked it a little, because I was kind of looking at this guy, who must have thought I was rather weird because I constantly had this little plastic spoon in my mouth, but to be fair he had his spoon in his mouth, so ha.

But then my poor little spoon properly cracks, and I'm all sad, and my spoon is all sad, so I drew a sad face on it, and from that moment on he was my sad little spoon and my art mascot.

So now he just sits on my table in art, being cute and sad. And although he is sad it makes me happy to look at him, because he is my little sad spoon.

Thank you for reading my random story, have a great week.

So remember, each day, live a little, laugh a little and love a little. ♥

So my newest project at college is based on the book 1984 by George Orwell, which I still haven't finished reading but shh!

For those of you haven't read it, or know nothing about it, it was written in 1948, about the future of a corrupt government and their mission to seize control over everything that you are. The story is based around Winston, a character who does not agree with the strict and ridiculous views of the party, so he obtains a diary, any form of self expression is against the law, he begins to write, and so on and so forth, I haven't gotten to anything exciting yet.

I swear I keep meaning to finish it, but the book is on my phone and it hurts my eyes and there are other distracting things going on in the world!

Over the Christmas holidays I was meant to be doing research and I just felt completely uninspired and anyone that does art knows that that is really not good at all and that you might as well crawl up into a hole and die (which I kind of did, because I got ill the second day in and had to stay home). So after talking to my tutors I decided to look at slogans and stuff like that, political things, other opinions and just stuff really, so here's some stuff ive done so far:

When reading the book this is how I picture big brother, he is meant to look like Barty Crouch from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, however I wanted to make his moustache bigger because I thought if I drew him exactly like the images from the film, he would have looked a little too much like Hitler, however he ended up looking like Hitler anyway, which although it was appropriate to the story, isn't how I wanted him to look. However, it is rather funny in lessons making sheets and sheets of photocopies of "Hitler's" face, all of the lower art students much think I'm a rather strange person when I'm walking around the halls with Ingsoc party slogans written allover my sketchbook.

One of the artists I've been looking at in my research is Barbara Kruger:

She uses found photographs, layering them with text, such text usually questions our views on feminism, classicism, consumerism and individual autonomy and desire. These ideas are contrasted with the images she uses, usually taken from mainstream magazines. Some of her more famous slogans are ones such as "I shop therefore I am," and "Your body is a battleground."

In fact, it is the first snow of the year and possibly the only snow of the year. You never quite know what you're going to get around here, especially in this part of the country In the north east it snows a lot more, but  here, its just crazy. Last year it snowed on my birthday, which is in February and yet we had had no snow over Christmas, the weather here is just bizarre. Even last September was insane, it would be from scorching hot to monsoon rainfall in the same day, and we had to put up with that for 2 months, it was very annoying when it came to getting dressed in the morning.

But anyway, back to the snow.

Earlier I wrapped my sister up in like 20 layers of clothes, and we went to play in the snow for 5 minutes, just in case it all disappeared, I really wish I lived closer to my friends so we could have a massive snowball fight, but alas that shall have to wait! The snow covered landscapes can be so beautiful, and there is nothing better than walking in a bit of undisturbed snow, it's so satisfying to be the first people to walk in that snow. I think the novelty of snow can wear out pretty quickly once we realise how inconvenient it is, England is just rather unequiped for snow and we just don't do anything about it because we never expect to have it.

While writing this post, my little sister (who is off "ill") spotted some of the other kids playing in the street, when I asked apparently you can pick up your kids from school, as the snow is only going to get worse, but I couldn't find anything on the website and when I finally got hold of my Mum, she said it's not worth taking Abbey out, cos we'll be out of the warm for about half an hour. So my little brother will hate me when he gets home, but what can I do?

Hopefully if there is still enough snow when we get to Mum's later this afternoon we can play properly in the snow, or at least I can, yay. Drinking hot chocolate in the snow is one of my fondest memories from a couple of years ago and my 18th birthday will always be frosted with the icing sugar that was the snow. Wondering around Notting Hill in not enough layers was cold but still wonderful.

But I'm really not looking forward to walking to and from work tomorrow, knowing my luck I'm gonna fall over on my bum, and it will be cold and wet and painful *sigh*.

For everyone else who has snow, I hope you're having a great time and please send me some amazing photos of your awesome snowmen! I doubt i'll have a chance to make one *sad face*.

So remember, each day, live a little, laugh a little and love a little. ♥

And I mean it, the future is uncertain and scary, but that doesn't mean it can't be amazing and brilliant. 

I for instance have officially applied for University now, aaaahhhhhhhh!

I can't even express how excited I am that I am finally taking steps towards my future, and how unbelievably scary it is, what if I don't get in anywhere, or into the uni I really really really want to go to, or what if my artwork isn't good enough or what if I don't get enough money to actually live and afford fabric or anything, ahhhh!

I know that last bit was filled with a whole lot of "what ifs", but life is full of them anyway. What if, my ex and I hadn't of had that argument, what if, I didn't study as much as I did, what if, i didn't make friends easily, what if, what if, what if.

I just need to believe in myself and my decisions and focus on the good things. Like all the stress of college will hopefully mean I can get into university! 

Unfortunately I can't tell you which universities I have applied for, but they'd find this post and then know who else I've applied to and they aren't allowed to know that. Also hardly any of you would know any of the universities anyway, because they are obviously all in nice rainy England.

But I can tell you, that one university has so far asked for an online portfolio, and I have an interview with a different university and I only sent off my application 4 days ago, so aaahhhh, still waiting for one of my top choices to reply, so until they do, I'm going to be petrified, even though I know they said on the open day that they interview everyone, I can't help but feeling nervous!

I also need back all of my A-level artwork so I cant probably start building up my portfolio, which will be bloody stressful!

I am, however, looking forward to my incredibly future, and I will definitely make the most of it!

(I promise once my laptop has got a new battery I will blog more)

So remember, each day, live a little, laugh a little and love a little. ♥

I can't believe I've had my blog for a whole year now, this year has just gone so quickly.

I know I haven't been a very good blogger these past couple of months, I'm that bad that I missed my own blogs birthday, I'm sorry blog, I'm a bad person, but I promise this year i'll be better!

As I started my blog as a new years resolution I thought this would be a nice chance to reflect on my other resolutions from last year and just the year in general.

1. Taking better care of myself (be healthier and eat more often)

Well, erm, yeah, I have tried to a degree. I have honestly tried to be healthy, but it hasn't been easy, this year has been rather difficult, here is something that I haven't shared on here before, but my parents split up in July, so yeah, not as easy year, and trying to be good just isn't as important and trying to deal with all the other stuff *a much worse word was originally inserted here!*

2. Read more

Well this started off well, I was reading at least one book a month, and I've read some amazing books, some truly eye opening books, som great stories, and I have planned to read lots and lots of books, I've even started about 4 and just not had time to read, how pathetic, because I love reading!

3. Explore New Places

I have been to quite a few new places this year, not as many as I would have liked but it has been amazing! Most of these places have been to look at Universities, but who cares why I went, I was still there. So I went to, a little village in Scotland, Carlisle, Liecester, Preston, Cambridge, ok, so thats not that many, but I have had other stuff to do, hopefully this year I'll go to even more places!

4. Start a Blog

Well, obviously... *happy face*

So remember, each day, live a little, laugh a little and love a little. ♥